Ultrasound

Just had an ultrasound for the first time in a month. 

The baby looks great!! She weighs about 2lbs 10 ounces which the doctor is very happy with. 

That's a very good weight especially if she would be born now.

Yeah for big Viking babies- thanks to my husbands genes :)

28 Weeks!!

Yeah big milestone reached. We are 28 Weeks today 🎉🎉🎉🎉

I am so excited. Means this little baby girl has a really really good chance of survival now. I also got my second round of steroids so her lungs should have the best chance of maturity.

I have been having a little bit of a rough couple of days though.

I started bleeding on Sunday and it scared me. Makes me realize why people say everyday matters and I can see now why everyday this girl gets to stay in my belly is a gift to be thankful for. 

So today is the first morning since Sunday with no bleeding. Makes me feel good. Hopefully things have calmed down in my uterus. 

Baby girl is doing real good though. She's moving and kicking a lot. 

My two other ones have started all day preschool which I think is good for them. Our little Aedan is still adjusting to it though. Apparently he cries when daddy drops him off and that just breaks my heart. I wish I could be there for both of them right now and I really hope my being in here won't somehow scar them to much.

I am grateful for the fact that my husband is such a great dad but they need their mommy too. If things will go well I am not coming home for another 2 month and I've been here 1 month already. But 

there is nothing I can do about it. I have to trust that all will be well in the end and this is the path my family has to go at this time.

See I am trying to be trusting and faithful :)

26 weeks

Well we have made it to 26 weeks. The last couple of days have been quite uneventful. 

Nothing going on physically but emotionally it was a bit of a rough day. 

I prepared financial papers for my husband just in case. Should the worst happen my husband will have enough on his hands without having to worry about finding financial papers. 

Along with the papers I wrote a just-in-case letter to my husband. That was quite tough. 

But it has shown me again that when this is all over I want us to simplify our lives. 

Spend more quality time together, worry less about bills etc. 

Finally move out to the country. Get a house with some land, let my husband do all the gardening and have me learn the canning and preserving of all the goodies. 

Aedans 2nd birthday

I had a nice day today. We celebrated my little mans second birthday today. My husband brought the cake, balloons and presents to my room and then he went and picked up the kids from preschool and brought them to the hospital. 

Aedan was excited about the balloons and presents. 

So not only did he turn two today he also  had his first preschool day today. He did very well. No crying and apparently he was very polite. 

His big sister was by his side right away when another kid pushed him. So adorable that she watches out for him.

So a great today for all of us. 

Special thanks to my wonderful husband Micah who has been so amazing throughout this entire journey. Love him so much

25 weeks 2days

We are still sitting in the hospital. The exciting update for this week is that I get to ambulate three times per day on the unit. I am excited about that. Baby and I had a really good quiet week. No bleeding, no contractions. Just happily sitting here and growing a baby. 

9 more weeks to go. 

Overall I have been feeling pretty well. Now and then I have a little breakdown when I envision the day of the surgery. I am scared that I won't wake up postoperative. But I am trying to be positive and quite frankly I am trying to find my faith that I lost somewhere after my teenage years.

It's a slow process. Overall I believe that this is my road to walk. What the outcome will be I don't know. I try to trust that I am meant to be around longer. To be a good mother and to be there toraise my beautiful children, to be there for my husband so him and I can raise this family together and follow our dreams.

Oh how I hope that that is what is meant for me. 

I am distracting myself by working on my crotchet projects. That is another hospital goal. To get better at crocheting. 

Here's what I have done this week.