24weeks2days

Yeah-I reached my first goal a couple of days ago. We made it to 24 weeks. I am so happy about that. I have also completed my first cycle of steroid shots to help my baby girls lung develop. 

I have been in the hospital since Saturday and it looks like they will keep me for a while. I haven't had any more bleeding since I came in but my doctors want to make sure it stays that way. I am totally okay with that. I can definately rest a lot better here then at home even though I miss my babies and husband a lot. 

We had a good talk with the neonatologist this week as well and he was letting us know what we can expect if she comes early. It was interesting and scary and we want to avoid early labor as much as possible.

So I am being patient and trying to get better at my crochet projects. 

Here are some of the things I have done this week:

Back to the hospital

Well we had a small scare last night again. I started to bleed again- so here I am back in the hospital,
Thankfully at this point the bleeding has stopped and me and my little girl are doing okay. We are almost to 24 weeks and that's all I want to focus on right now. Tomorrow I will do some blood test to check for diabetes in preparation of getting my steroid shots on Tuesday and Wednesday which most likely will be done here in the hospital.
I am staying positive and to be completely honest I don't mind being in the hospital. The food is great and everyone is super nice.
It is a little less stress and worry for my husband as well since he knows that I am well taken care of. I do miss everyone of course though.
We will see how long I have to stay this time.

23weeks 3days

Another couple of quiet days have gone by. More or less quiet that is. My 2 and 3 year old are going nuts quite a bit right now. They don't understand why I just lie in bed all day. So it is quiet when their daddy distracts them 😃

My little baby girl is kicking quite a lot and I can't say how happy it makes me to feel her that strong. Means she is growing and getting bigger. Almost reached one of my goals which will be my first steroid injection on Tuesday. We want to give her the best possible chances in case she comes early. So far things look good though. My cervix is short but closed and not effaced. I haven't had any bleeding in almost 3 weeks.
Wednesday's ultrasound will show weather or not the placenta has grown again and we will discuss my surgery plan with the team.

I had a bit of a meltdown earlier. Good old crying session. Sometimes I get really scared thinking about the surgery. Even with preparation things can go wrong and plenty of mothers die from this. Can't even describe how scared I get imaging loosing my life now.
All the things I would miss in my kids life. But I am trying to grow with this and find my faith again. Just not quite sure how. If this is what is meant for me then I need to learn to
accept that. I've had a great life so far.
I married the love of my life and we've been together for almost 15 years now. We have built a beautiful family. It's been tough at times but I wouldn't change any of it.
I have traveled and seen places.
But there is still so much more I want to see and do.
If I make it trough this alive I am definitely ready for some changes in our lives.
Life is to short to just trudge along...

9/10/13- scary

Well the last 8 days have been quite eventful. I started bleeding on 9/2/13 and my husband Micah as well as our two little kids had to rush me to the hospital.
I ended up being admitted and stayed in the hospital for 8 days for observation.
Thankfully the bleeding stopped and I had no contractions. My little girls heartrate was perfect throughout.
I was discharged home on strict bedrest and I have been sitting in my bed for the last week.
Quite boring at times but it has given me the time to get better at my new passion crocheting. I a
m thankful that everything continues to be okay with my little one.
23 weeks today -yeah- everyday counts.
It is definately hard to be compliant with the strict bedrest since I have a 3 and a 2 year old at home. It's hard for me to not being able to help my husband with any of the chores. Unfortunately we have no family close by to help us.
My mother in law was able to fly out and help us for one week which was a great relieve.
Unfortunately my parents are in Germany and the earliest they can fly out will be November,

Next week I am scheduled for the steroids shots to help the babies lung develop in case she is born early. Still praying that I will be able to keep her inside until 34 weeks.
My little baby girl :)

Newly diagnosed

Well I am totally new to this blogger world and we shall see if I will stick with this.
I am writing this as much for myself as well as for anyone out there who is interested in reading this.

I am mother to a 3 year old girl and an almost 2 year old boy. I am currently 20 weeks pregnant with our 3rd child ( its a girl!!) and just got diagnosed with placenta percreta that so far has grown into my bladder.
Scary!
I had never even heard of this condition and this is not what my husband Micah and I were expecting when we went in for our ultrasound.
Needless to say we are both pretty scared.
I have been taken off  work already since I am a Registered Nurse in a ICU and the last thing my doctor wants me to do is run around for 12 hours.

I am having good days and bad days as I am trying to come to terms with what this means for me and my family. Hysterectomy, bladder repair and possible loss of life.
I am anxious for our appointment two weeks from now where we will find out the exact treatment plan.
I am grateful to be in good care and thankful that my doctor was able to diagnose this early.

More to come...